Aggravated.

I can't remember the last time I took a picture.. of myself. I've gotten to the point where I HATE taking pictures. I hate group pictures & I hate that my friends love to document every night that we go out & take pictures with everyone we're out with. I hate how I look in pictures, I hate how I look in general. Why doesn't ANYTHING give me the courage, the drive, or the will to change that!? Nothing keeps me in the mind-set that I need to stay in. I need to change so much about me, but I never stick to diets or work out routines. I get reminded of this everytime a friend pulls out a camera or posts pictures on facebook. No wonder my ex that I was with for almost 5 years didn't want to be with me anymore. For a lack of a better phrase, I hate myself. & that's still NOT enough to convince me to change anything about me. What the EFF!

Out of my element.

Saturday night I went with my friends Emil, Nick, Jimmy, Emils' bro Josh, Lauren, Brandon & Brandons' girlfriend to a "bonfire." We were meeting up with Emils' friend Tim. It was out past Brimfield and into Suffield.. way out in the boonies. We turned off of 224 and as soon as we drove up a hill we see the bonfire on the left hand side of the road, prolly like 10ish feet away from the road. It was HUGE! Then we look to our right and see all the trucks & SUVs parked along side of the road in the grass on the dudes' property in front of his barn.

We pulled in, opened the doors to get out of Laurens' SUV and the smell of horse shit over-whelmed us. All we did was laugh. Lauren, Nick & myself started walking to the party and realized just how many people were standing around the bonfire then we looked around the barn and saw even more people just standing around, everyone with beer in their hands. People were playing cornhole. There was a beer pong table set up in the garage that was a 3-car garage with all the doors open with the radio inside playing country music.

This dude not only owned his own house, but owned the garage and I think there was 2 barns on his property.. let alone the property ACROSS the street. I was seriously in awe. We just stood there for 5 minutes to take it all in. I had never been to a real "country" like bonfire. Basically every guy had on them tan timberland type boots. Some guys had belt buckles. I even saw a guy in overalls.

I loved pretty much every minute of it. Emils' brother Josh went around the barn to use the bathroom and walks up to me "There's seriously cows just chillen in the pasture." Haha. I never thought I'd ever hear that sentence. We suddenly got the urge to go cow tippin' but they were inside an electric fence. (Smart move on the owners part. Haha.) In the garage was a nice lookin four-wheeler. Nick was like "And that'd be your four-wheelers daddy" because it's so much more bigger than mine. Haha. The owner of the property was riding around in a golf cart, with a beer in one hand, smokes in the other, and some chicks as passengers. Made me chuckle everytime I saw them.

When we were saying our goodbyes to everyone I saw 2 guys wearing the exact same shirt: the front of the shirt said "Duma Meats" and the back was just advertising Duma Meats. They were SO cute, I'm totally going to Duma Meats ASAP. I know who the Duma's are, they are truly an amazing family.. and they're oldest son is such a stud muffin. It's like everyone knew everyone. I only live not even 5-10 minutes away from Brimfield, Mogadore & Suffield but yet it was a whole-nother world. I SO much rather of grown up in the country than in Akron. I can't wait to move out to Brimfield. I'm seriously SO happy I didn't "settle" for a house that I found in Ellet. I woulda made the biggest mistake of my life. The only bad parts of the night was the Summer heat. I was miserably HOT even at 1am.. seriously 80 degrees at 1:00 in the morning is NOT needed in life. And I lost in every corn hole game I played, NOT cool.

Current Celebrity Crush.

Justin Chatwin (born October 31, 1982) is a Canadian film actor, best known for playing the son of Tom Cruise's character in the Steven Spielberg-directed War of the Worlds, for his leading role in the 2007 Mystery/Thriller The Invisible and his role as Goku in Dragonball Evolution. He is also an ambassador for Operation Smile.

Life & Career:

Chatwin was born in Nanaimo, British Columbia, the son of an artist mother and an engineer father. He was raised Roman Catholic.

As well as War of the Worlds and The Invisible, his other film roles include the independent film The Chumscrubber, SuperBabies: Baby Geniuses 2 and Taking Lives.

In addition, Chatwin has had several television roles, including the miniseries Taken & the hit TV show Lost.

He also played the son of Kevin Nealon's character on the Showtime comedy series Weeds pilot. More recently, he appeared as Goku in 20th Century Fox's live action movie Dragonball Evolution.

Chatwin will portray songwriter and musician Emitt Rhodes in an upcoming film of the same name.

So he's a Canadian actor? Hmmm.. maybe I should make a trip up to Canada, ay? ;)

FAIL.

I didn't keep up with the 30-Day Challenge. Haha. How pathetic, I think I made it to Day 06 or something like that? So instead of trying to play catch up, I'll just do a survey and call it quits.

5

5 Five things you will find if you open my purse:
1. Another purse, no joke- it's a little black clutch purse.
2. A Hawaiian leis.
3. A plug to a portable DVD player.
4. Lipglosses.
5. Money scattered everywhere.

Five things in my bedroom:
1. Furniture.
2. Sony Bravia TV. ;)
3. Lots of movies.
4. Maroon chaise lounge.
5. Bubba Mo.

Five things I’ve always wanted to do in my life:
1. Visit Europe.
2. Go to San Franisco.
3. Be "skinny."
4. Stay in a penthouse in NYC.
5. Live at the beach.

Five things that make me very happy:
1. Love.
2. Laughing.
3. Vacations.
4. When Bubba runs up to me when I get home from work.
5. Being tan.

Five things I’m currently into:
1. Pretty Little Liars & first season of Supernatural.
2. Twilight: Eclipse.
3. Saving money.
4. World cup. 5. Tumblr.

Five things on my to-do list:
1. Clean my car & my bedroom.
2. Save money.
3. Get a gift for Father's day.
4. Text Kaleigh.
5. Diet & work out.

Five things some people may or may not know about me:
1. I don't lie.
2. Number 1 is totally a lie, who doesn't "lie" ?! Seriously.
3. I'm tired of being single but have no drive to change that.
4. I know how to play Happy Birthday on the Piano.
5. I wish I was more outspoken.



BOLD

Bold your personality.
Bold what’s you, or what you like, or what you’ve done.

I’m loud only when I’m high.
I’m obnoxious.
I’m sarcastic.
I’m cocky.
I cry easily.
I have a bad temper.
For the most part, I don’t like people.
I’m easy to get along with.
I like to fight.
I have more enemies than friends.
I’ve smoked.
I’ve smoked weed.
I drink coffee.
I clean my room daily.

My appearance:

I wear makeup.
I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
I wear contacts.
I wear glasses.
I’ve had braces.
I have braces.
I change my hair color often.
I straighten my hair often.
My ears are pierced.
I have small feet.

Relationships:

I’m in a relationship now.
I’m single.
I’m crushin’.
I’ve missed an ex before.
I’m always scared of being hurt.
An ex has physically abused me at least once.
I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
I’ve been in love more than two times.
I believe in love at first sight.
I believe lust is more important than love.

Friendships:

I have a best friend.
I have at least ten friends.
I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
I’ve beaten up a friend.
I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
I can trust at least five people with my life.

Experiences:

I’ve been on a plane.
I’ve been on a train.
I’ve left the state/province.
Someone close to me has died.
I’ve taken a taxi.
I’ve taken a city bus.
I’ve taken a school bus.
I’ve gone bungee jumping.
I’ve made a speech.
I’ve been in some sort of club.
I’ve won an award.
I’ve spent 24 hours on the computer straight.
I’ve been in a physical fight.

Music:

I listen to country.
I listen to pop.
I listen to techno.
I listen to rock.
I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
I hate the radio.
I download music.
I buy CD’s.

Television:

I spend at least six hours a day watching television.
I watch soap operas daily.
I’m in love with Days Of Our Lives.
I’ve seen and like The OC.
I’ve seen and like One Tree Hill.
I’ve seen and like America’s Next Top Model.
I’ve seen and like Popular.
I’ve seen and like House.
I’ve seen and like 24.
I’ve seen and like CSI.
I’ve seen and like Everwood.

Family Life:

I get along with both of my parents.
My biological parents are still together.
I have at least one brother.
I have at least one sister.
I have at least one step brother/sister.
I have at least one half brother/sister.
I’ve been kicked out of the house.
I’ve ran away from my house.
I’ve sworn at my parents.
I’ve made my parents cry.
I’ve lied to my parents.
I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.
I’ve lied to my parents so I’d be allowed out.
I’ve walked out when I’ve been grounded.

Hair:

I’ve been brown.
I’ve had streaks.
I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
I’ve been blonde.
I’ve had black.
I’ve been red.
I’ve been light brown.
I’ve been medium brown.
I’ve had purple/pink.
I’ve been blue/green.
I’ve gotten my hair thinned.
I use conditioner.
I’ve used silk therapy.
I’ve used hot oil treatments.
I’ve curled my hair.
I’ve straightened my hair.
I’ve ironed my hair.
I’ve braided my hair.
I’ve had/want dreadlocks.

School:

I’ve thrown something at a teacher.
I’ve yelled at a teacher.
I’ve been suspended.
I’ve had an in-school suspension.
I’ve been sent to the principal’s office.
I’ve walked out of class.
I’ve skipped an entire day of school.
I’ve skipped a whole month of one certain class.
I’ve failed a test.
I’ve cheated on a test.
I’ve helped someone else cheat on a test.
I’ve failed Art.
I’ve failed P.E.
I’ve failed Math.
I’ve failed another class.
A teacher has called my parents.
I’ve been caught skipping

3 Photos for Day 06

30 Day Challenge! Don't mind if I do!

Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy:

- My office "boyfriend," Shawn deserves a shout out! He's by far one of the most interesting people I know. And he's a cute little stud muffin! Ha-ha. He has almost flawless advice. I love how he views life & people. He keeps me grounded & sane. Because of him I'm able to focus on more good things, and dismiss any bad feelings, thoughts, people and/or situations as fast as they arise.

Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
- The first picture below is a picture of my "neice" Kendra Bear who is the cutest thing ever and was born a rockstar, takin after her mama.. thats fa sho! "Is you rollin? Bitch I might be!" Then the other 2 pictures are pictures of my closest friends who I cherish very much. The picture of us with shots is a very rare occassion. I never get to go out with all my friends!

Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took.
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 day
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Challenge still going strong.

30 Day Challenge! Don't mind if I do!

Day 01 — Your favorite song:
- At the moment I have TONS! Top 5 are: Can't Be Tamed - Miley Cyrus(Don't judge!) , Cooler Than You - Mike Posner , O Lets Do It - Waka Flocka , Undo It - Carrie Underwood , California Girls - Katy Perry & Snopp Dogg
Day 02 — Your favorite movie:
- Ehh, here's my top 5: The Mummy movies, The Goonies, Twilight Saga, PS I Love You, Peter Pan/Cinderella
Day 03 — Your favorite television program:
- FAIL#1 Whoooops.. Gossip Girl, The Hills, Supernatural, Bones, Family Guy, CSI, a few Law & Orders, Royal Pains, Burn Notice & True Blood
Day 04 — Your favorite book:
- I don't read books! The only book/series I've read is Twilight, which was total amaaaazement.
Day 05 — Your favorite quote:
- The only people you need in your life, are the ones who need you in theirs.

Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy:
- My office "boyfriend," Shawn deserves a shout out! He's by far one of the most interesting people I know. And he's a cute little stud muffin! Ha-ha. He has almost flawless advice. I love how he views life & people. He keeps me grounded & sane. Because of him I'm able to focus on more good things, and dismiss any bad feelings, thoughts, people and/or situations as fast as they arise.

Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took.
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 day
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Pettiness.

So I've been sitting here at work since I wrote my previous blog and all I've been thinking about is how petty it was of me to complain about something that is SO over with, such OLD news. Why do I still care? I'm almost being hypocritical because I find it funny & annoying when people over focus on one thing, and one thing only. And me still THINKING I care about something that happened to me well over a year ago, is stupid, pointless & petty.

There's far more people in this world that have so many things in their life that is far worse compared to my life. I should be thankful everyday that I get to spend in the present & looking forward to my future. I have AMAZING people in my life. And I truly mean AMAZING. Who cares about some "boy" that broke my heart. Everything that I feel towards this "boy" is jealousy, envy & hatred- everything that you should never let consume your mind and/or heart. Life is better when you focus on the good parts & jus brush off the bad parts of your life. There's no sense at all to dwell on any of the bad parts.

The sun is still going to rise tomorrow morning, no matter what happens to me or my life. Today really is just another day. (Even if it's Monday-Blah!) Have a good day! xoxo

Just another day?

I was sitting in my car today at Sheets gas station on Steels Corners, waiting for my car to fill up with gas. I was texting Nick to sort-of "vent" because I can't stand people sometimes and I hit the button on my phone that takes me to the home screen and there it was, today's date, plain as day. June 14th. I seriously just sat there & stared at my phone. It hit me hard what today actually is. I never gave it any thought in the days leading up today (Which in turn is a good thing.) But seeing the date, right in front of me just made my stomache drop about 60 feet. I was totally unprepared.

Today is the anniversary date between me & the EX. I don't like being reminded about these things. You can judge me all you want for letting something like this get to me, especially after it's been so long since we were last "together." But the past couple months between us have jus made todays date even worse. He's living the life we had planned out for us, without me, with another girl. I mean seriously- down to the "little" detail of naming his son, the name I wanted to name my son.

Ugh! It frustrates me SO much that I just took the time to type out this blog. I need to grow the eff up. So this is me, ending my session of complaints. May tomorrow come faster than the speed of light. I'm SO done with today already.

Day 05 of Challenge.

30 Day Challenge! Don't mind if I do!

Day 01 — Your favorite song:
- At the moment I have TONS! Top 5 are: Can't Be Tamed - Miley Cyrus(Don't judge!) , Cooler Than You - Mike Posner , O Lets Do It - Waka Flocka , Undo It - Carrie Underwood , California Girls - Katy Perry & Snopp Dogg
Day 02 — Your favorite movie:
- Ehh, here's my top 5: The Mummy movies, The Goonies, Twilight Saga, PS I Love You, Peter Pan/Cinderella
Day 03 — Your favorite television program:

- FAIL#1 Whoooops.. Gossip Girl, The Hills, Supernatural, Bones, Family Guy, CSI, a few Law & Orders, Royal Pains, Burn Notice & True Blood

Day 04 — Your favorite book:

- I don't read books! The only book/series I've read is Twilight, which was total amaaaazement.

Day 05 — Your favorite quote:

- The only people you need in your life, are the ones who need you in theirs.

Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy :
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took.
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 day
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

30 Day Challenge - Fail #1

30 Day Challenge! Don't mind if I do!

Day 01 — Your favorite song:
- At the moment I have TONS! Top 5 are: Can't Be Tamed - Miley Cyrus(Don't judge!) , Cooler Than You - Mike Posner , O Lets Do It - Waka Flocka , Undo It - Carrie Underwood , California Girls - Katy Perry & Snopp Dogg
Day 02 — Your favorite movie:
- Ehh, here's my top 5: The Mummy movies, The Goonies, Twilight Saga, PS I Love You, Peter Pan/Cinderella

Day 03 — Your favorite television program:

FAIL#1 Whoooops..

- Gossip Girl, The Hills, Supernatural, Bones, Family Guy, CSI, a few Law & Orders, Royal Pains, Burn Notice & True Blood

Day 04 — Your favorite book:

- I don't read books! The only book/series I've read is Twilight, which was total amaaaazement.

Day 05 — Your favorite quote:
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy :
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took.
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 day
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

30 Day Challenge - Day #2

30 Day Challenge! Don't mind if I do!

Day 01 — Your favorite song:
- At the moment I have TONS! Top 5 are:
Can't Be Tamed - Miley Cyrus(Don't judge!) , Cooler Than You - Mike Posner , O Lets Do It - Waka Flocka , Undo It - Carrie Underwood , California Girls - Katy Perry & Snopp Dogg

Day 02 — Your favorite movie:
- Ehh, here's my top 5:
The Mummy movies
The Goonies
Twilight Saga
PS I Love You
Peter Pan/Cinderella

Day 03 — Your favorite television program:
Day 04 — Your favorite book:
Day 05 — Your favorite quote:
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy :
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took.
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 day
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

30 Day Challenge

So my work decided to down-grade our internet connection/service/explorer.. ugh whatever! Now I can't blog on my Tumblr sooo I'm going to do the 30-day Challenge thinger here instead. I got this from my little preggo friend Kaleigh :)


30 Day Challenge! Don't mind if I do!

Day 01 — Your favorite song:
- At the moment I have TONS! Top 5 are:
Can't Be Tamed - Miley Cyrus(Don't judge!)
Cooler Than You - Mike Posner
O Lets Do It - Waka Flocka
Undo It - Carrie Underwood
California Girls - Katy Perry & Snopp Dogg

Day 02 — Your favorite movie:
Day 03 — Your favorite television program:
Day 04 — Your favorite book:
Day 05 — Your favorite quote:
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy :
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 — A photo you took.
Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 — A fictional book
Day 14 — A non-fictional book
Day 15 — A fanfic
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc
Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 — A talent of yours
Day 20 — A hobby of yours
Day 21 — A recipe
Day 22 — A website
Day 23 — A YouTube video
Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 — Your day, in great detail
Day 26 — Your week, in great detail
Day 27 — This month, in great detail
Day 28 — This year, in great detail
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 day
Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Easily satisfied.

So I'm just sitting here at work, minding my own business.. working like the little worker bee that I am.. listening to all of Chingy's songs and my friend Kaleigh tells me we're going to lunch at 1 o'clock and she has Raviolio's to eat. I got the sudden craving for Spaghettio's. (AKA sgettio's to me.)

Where my place of employement is, there's no store or gas station around that I can just run to and be back in 10 minutes. So I went on a "hunt" and started asking my lovely co-workers if they had Spaghettio's, not expecting to find any- at all! MY FRIEND CHERYL HAD, not jus one but TWOOOO can's of Spaghettio's! She freakin made my day! Ha-ha I swear I'm not 10 years old, I'm actually 24 and happen to LOVE me some yummy sgettio's! :)